UPDATE!

So, i haven't written for a while. But that is ok. I mean this is for me to read anyways. But i said that I want to try to actually do this all the time. I just never really had the time these past week or so because I had finals to do and busy with everything else.

Anyways, I'm so excited because I will be moving in a couple weeks I bought lots of stuff online so that before I move I have these things and I would not be buying anymore.

REMEMBER CARMEN >>> YOU MAY NOT BUY ANYTHING MORE AFTER YOU RECEIVE THESES THINGS IN THE MAIL.

I'm really excited to get them. Hopefully soon. I know the circle lens will not be here until January I think. The straightener and hair dryer will be here in a few days. which is awesome. I'm buy some more things. then I'm done. No more for a long long time.

Oh I am doing a work out written by luvableviet. Hopefully I will have a nice body soon. I do see a small different after the first few days. So i'm really really happy about it.

And Charles bought me the 2 volumes of Mastering the art of French Cooking. So excited to use the cookbook when I move out. I'm so Happy!

Anyways gotta go.

I Got IT!

December 8th, 2009. Cold.

Yeah! We got the apartment. We will be signing a lease tomorrow. That is so awesome. Now we must do all the planning. Like how we will be moving everything and if we will need help from anyone.

I wanted to go my homework but i couldn't find the assignment questions. it really sucks!

I better go to bed.

Monday

December 7th, 2009. COLD

I am so tired right now. I mean I think it is cuz I didn't sleep early yesterday and today. So it really sucks. But this is the last week of school before finals, then 3 weeks off. I will be working as much as I can. Need more money.
Anyways...hope it is good news tomorrow. Hopefully we get the apartment.

I got to sleep. And i have nothing to say.

One more week to go

December 6th, 2009. Sunny.

This is the last week for the fall term of school. It is coming so fast, time is just flying by. I really can't believe it is time for finals already. So crazy. Hopefully I will pass with good marks this year. I know that my accounting should be fine. Just the other ones may or may not be good, like tax and stats. Hopefully stats will be at least 70%. Tax...hopefully, i just pass. I dunno what to do. Tax is just hard to understand.

My goodness, besides school. Charles and I went to look at mattresses today. We chose a really nice one. I like it. Some people call it the bowling ball bed.
I love it. Charles loves it too. He still needs a good pillow. I have a good one already. So happy! But all depends on if we get the place I guess.

Charles is still more worried that I cannot pay for the rent. It really bothers me. Oh wells. We will see what God wants us to do. Maybe we need to wait till April.

I better go and finish my assignment now. Damn, i forgot I still have stats assignment to do. Shiet. I better do it later...maybe tomorrow in accounting. Which means I better finish accounting right now before I go to bed.

Good night.

moving?

December 5th, 2009. Snowing.

If you live where I live you would completely understand that today was completely ridiculous. Today...actually yesterday it started to snow in Edmonton. It was really really bad because there is like at least 15cm of snow. So many cars got stuck on the roads. Traffic was backed up. Tow trucks where very busy. What I don't understand is why the city is not sending out the snow plows? I mean it is bad already, by the time it is Monday it would hell.

Honestly. Take today for an example. I couldn't even get out of our parking spot. Let alone the parking lot. I had to call a cab. At least the guy was nice and everything. But honestly...I don't understand why the city has not reacted yet.

Oh, a really interesting thing happened while I was at work today. Willson told me that the tenants living in our townhouse complex all came out just to shovel the snow in the parking lot area. Isn't that amazing? I think it is, I mean this is out of the goodness of everyone hearts. I think it is a miracle.

So, today Charles and I gave our security deposit for the apartment. Actually, to be honest, I wasn't a 100% sure that we were still going to go through with it. I mean, Charles' dad did offer us money for a downpayment for a house because they were worried about how we will pay for the apartment. To be completely frank. I want to take that offer; however, at the same time I want to move out right away. I don't think I can stand to live at home anymore. I really just want my own place with Charles. I mean who doesn't want their own space? I'm not saying I don't love my parents or my brother. But I like be dependent. Of course i will miss my dad's cooking. He is one of the best cooks I know. Anyways, back on topic. The only reason I don't want to wait till April is because I want to get a chance to see how we could work together to pay for rent. I mean if we buy a house, I think we would get into more arguments because we have never dealt with a situation of that magnitude before. Well, I have. I mean I take care of most of my parent's finances and my parents have been in debt forever. I learnt how to dealt with it. Charles on the other hand, he pays for things and life in the Philippines is hard but he has not dealt with things I had to. So different levels i guess you could say.

Anyways, I have to work at 6am so I guess I better go to bed. Good night.

TGI Fridays

December 4th, 2009. Blizzard.

I am so happy that it is Friday. I finished all my assignments (YAH!).

Problem? There always is a problem. For example I still have my case that I want to finish on Saturday. Which hopefully that will happen.

So crazy thing happened today. Willson (my younger brother) and I got into an accident with some @$$hole. Oh my goodness, it was ridiculous! Let me put it this way. He was completely unreasonable. I work at McDonald's which means I have to deal with people that are completely difficult. But he was completely rude. I mean I honestly wanted to punch him in the face today. So rude. But I know I will get over it.

Well, whatever I better go to bed because I have to work at 6am. FUN! LOL!

I don't want to do anything.

December 3rd, 2009. Cold.

I don't want to do anything in school. I just want to sleep and chill. But finals are coming up. I have 3 assignments due tomorrow. I hate it! I still haven't got a chance to get my case done. I hate this. When will it be done?

But something to be happy about. Charles and I found a place somewhere called MacEwan Village. I really like the place. It would be nice to stay there. But right now the only thing that bothers me is the fact that Charles keeps saying that I can't help him pay. It really annoys me. But whatever, I mean I know I can handle it as long as I know I have my own place. Anyways, the best this is this apartment pays for all the utilities, so I don't have to worry about those things. Just cable, internet, cellphone, food and small things for the house. Now I have to save for the moving in part. I mean we have to get a new mattress since Charles and I have bad backs from our mattresses right now. We have a futon and my daybed to act as couches for now so that is good. The TV will be cheaper since Charles won a $500 dollar gift card from his Christmas party. I think we will be buying a table from goodwill. other things like lamps could be bought later. I mean there are many things we can buy slowly. I just hope the place approves him. I really pray to God that it does. I really want to get away from the stress I have at home.

Anyways, I better get to bed. It's already midnight.

School

December 2nd, 2009. Sunny.

I went to school today. I was late (of course). but I got my case and I stayed for my stats class. We are finished everything now but we have one more assignment to get through.

Tonight I have to finish my assignment for Tax so I can hand it in on Friday.

By the way, remember the place I was hoping to rent? Well, we are out of luck. I thought no one would get it but I guess I was wrong. Usually I would have went to see it put down a deposit and get the whole thing done so that the place is mine. But of course, Charles (my fiance) wanted to make sure everything is planned out before anything gets done. which is a good thing but at the same time it can be very annoying and hard to work with.

So now i have to find a new place that would fit our budget and our idea for a new place. I'm content with anything. Charles wants specific things that pretty much you aren't able to get until you have lots more money.

Too bad life is revolved around money now a days. *sigh*

ohh...I think I'm goin to get this hair cut when i get the chance. (the one on the left) Isn't it pretty? my hair is pretty close to that length now. I still have lots of layers to grow out but it will happen.

Anyways I better go. I have to finish my assignment but i think i will take a nap first. Peace

First Entry

Decemeber 1, 2009. Clear Day.

So this is my first entry.

I'm starting this blog to give me motivation to write a diary about my life. I'm not expecting anyone to read this. It's mostly for myself.

First off, I would like to write what has happened in my life up to this point.

I was engaged on August 1, 2009 to a wonderful guy. I have been with him for 4 years and a month. We are both planning to move out, hopefully in January. It would be a good thing to have our own place. I need space away from my parents. I love my parents but I really need to get away from them. I just need my own space. I'm 23 years old. I can't always be around my parents to help them with their money problems. I'm just so tired of it. It's been like this forever. Ever since I was a child.

I know that God wants me to take care of them. And I would be willing to do so. But both my parents are still acting like children. Do they not understand how old they are? Do they understand they have responsibilities as parents to keep their children away from harm? Why do my brother and I have to deal with their things when it is their shiet?

Also, why do I suck in school right now? I can't be focused in my education right now. I don't even what to go to my school. I'm dunno how I will refocus on my education?

Hopefully, writing in this diary would help me figure things out.